Just thoughts...

Sometimes I wonder people who do evil things, can they sleep at night?
I really wonder if their conscience is bothering them, and if they often worry that their evil acts will catch up with them one day.
Maybe like ah bo said, I'm too nice.
It bothers me if I have to do bad things to people, even if they totally fucking deserve it.
I guess it is really not my style to push someone to a corner with no way out. It really bothers me.
Sometimes I feel like a weakling. Just fucking let those bastards have it! Let them have a taste of their own medicine, after all they started the war.
But instead I fucking feel sympathy for them. Nah bei.

Sigh, I hate to be in such situation. I dont feel good punishing those people.
But I know, it's not just about me now, but survival of everyone working here.
I just have to toughen myself to protect what is ours.