First love

What is the definition of first love?
Hmmm... I guess it will be the first guy you really (1000x) like?

Well, I met up with mine last Saturday.
How should I describe the feeling?
Emm.. sweet, happy, comfortable.
Actually we have known each other for more than a decade.
I will never forget the sweet moments that we share.. heehee... *Goosebumps*

Anyways, kind of glad to meet up with him again.
We just spent 3 hours over lunch effortlessly talking about everything and anything.
Just like old times!
Of course, I told him about what happened recently (46, business shit) and suprise suprise...
I felt like crying when I told him.
Siao bo!!!!
Actually after the lunch, when I think back of the memories, I started tearing in the bus.
The last time I cried over a man? When I broke up with my first ex-bf.
Drama mama? Yes.

Anyways,
As usual, his style is to listen listen listen and give advice.
So different from other guys who will cut me off to give advice without listening.
I guess this is what special about him.
I just realized, I really miss that you know.
I miss talking to him and chit chat, like what I did during University days.
His smile when I said stupid things (I do that all the times) and the serious look when I told him my problems. Haiz...
Let you all in for a secret, sometimes I subconciously compare the guys I date with him, oh dear =P
But never mind lah hor, my first love has high standard so it's a good benchmark (even though he midget) hehehehe....

After this lunch, I know there will always be this tiny little space in my heart that is reserved for him.
Like a parking lot reserved for CEO.
I know we will never get together ever, because from the last time we care for each other, things have changed between us.
He has changed, so have I.
Things will never revert to the old times.
But the memory remains and I guess that bonds us together.

I'm happy with the current status with us as friends.
Never hope that I will be given the second chance with him.
Happy enough that he is my first love and we are still good friends.
I wish the best for him and nothing less.
=)