First love

What is the definition of first love?
Hmmm... I guess it will be the first guy you really (1000x) like?

Well, I met up with mine last Saturday.
How should I describe the feeling?
Emm.. sweet, happy, comfortable.
Actually we have known each other for more than a decade.
I will never forget the sweet moments that we share.. heehee... *Goosebumps*

Anyways, kind of glad to meet up with him again.
We just spent 3 hours over lunch effortlessly talking about everything and anything.
Just like old times!
Of course, I told him about what happened recently (46, business shit) and suprise suprise...
I felt like crying when I told him.
Siao bo!!!!
Actually after the lunch, when I think back of the memories, I started tearing in the bus.
The last time I cried over a man? When I broke up with my first ex-bf.
Drama mama? Yes.

Anyways,
As usual, his style is to listen listen listen and give advice.
So different from other guys who will cut me off to give advice without listening.
I guess this is what special about him.
I just realized, I really miss that you know.
I miss talking to him and chit chat, like what I did during University days.
His smile when I said stupid things (I do that all the times) and the serious look when I told him my problems. Haiz...
Let you all in for a secret, sometimes I subconciously compare the guys I date with him, oh dear =P
But never mind lah hor, my first love has high standard so it's a good benchmark (even though he midget) hehehehe....

After this lunch, I know there will always be this tiny little space in my heart that is reserved for him.
Like a parking lot reserved for CEO.
I know we will never get together ever, because from the last time we care for each other, things have changed between us.
He has changed, so have I.
Things will never revert to the old times.
But the memory remains and I guess that bonds us together.

I'm happy with the current status with us as friends.
Never hope that I will be given the second chance with him.
Happy enough that he is my first love and we are still good friends.
I wish the best for him and nothing less.
=)

Where is my stamina?

aiyuh.... today woke up late..
have to run after my bus.
wah... i was puffing and panting after a short not-so-fast dash (max 10m).
where has my stamina gone to?

ok this calls for SOS to regain stamina!
i need to run again, well... start to run again.
pui-eh asked me to run for SHAPE run taking ba-chai's place.
wah laooooooo how to run like that!!
furthermore, i finished in 1hr last year, i must do better this year or at least maintain the timing!
how to maintain with my current stamina!!!
and the run is 2 weeks away, this is mission impossible X.

okay need to start training for Real Run in October.

Lost at what to do

Once again, broster and dadster quarelled.
haiz...a regular thing that happened when the two of them sit on the same table.
Sometimes I'm really lost at what to do, being sandwich in the middle.
Should I side broster or should I side dadster?
Monsters lah the two of them.

As dadster is growing older, his temper is becoming worse.
It seems that to him, the loudest will win.
Even in public places like food centre.
Why like that? I also dont know.
Seems that after the chemo that he went through, dadster is really becoming a dadster.
If I know what dadster is thinking, maybe I can help, but dadster too ego and headstrong to listen to any opinion.

Broster, haiz... never give dadster update on the happenings in the business.
Never seek dadster's consultation on anything.
Am I expected to do all this?
Haiz.. broster, can't rely on me all the time ya,
I may die of accident tomorrow, who knows?

People always say wah so nice to be own boss.
Ya lor, very nice lah, flexible working hours.
But we still have target to meet and need to worry about everything else.
All these are manageable really, but the strain between broster and dadster is really killing me.
Feel so helpless and useless at times for being unable to bridge the gap between the 2 most important men in my life.

How to leave?
haiz... how to leave?
Really lost at what to do.

Now where is that chocolate when I need one....hmmm....

Bo Liao Moment

Sing fest today! yay!! free ticket! triple yay yay yay!!!
Dressed quite formal today, supposedly meeting a rep from BT.
But haiyah meeting changed to friday.

Anyways, so I went to trim my fringe further during lunch time because it's poking into my eyes.
So irritating!
Then hmmm.. i think my hairdresser looked super cool today.
hahahahahahahaha...
and the shy shy smile and his hehehehee...
He looked so cool when he was doing the cut cut trim trim snap snip snip *Nono is Charmed*
But gay lah (i think so).

well..one of those bo liao moment!haha!

Defeated by 2.4km

Jia lat! I was defeated by 2.4km yesterday!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I stopped to walk after 2.4km coz i cant really breathe properly.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I really need to start running again, have a big challenge of 15km in October.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

{()}! {()}! {()}!

Subjective

haiz.. i think im becoming more and more subjective and mean.
this is bad.. cannot like that.
chill baby chill..
down to earth nono down to earth
WOOF!!

Error in title

heeee...
error in the book i recommended.

It should be "Insider Dating".
Sorry huh, old people are like that, a bit senile, got minor case of cataract and super anal.
U all still lurrveee me right?
YAY!!!!!