I'm human after all

Today is the most drama mama day in my life.
FA quit. FA = fucking asshole.

With FA quit, i have to take over his job, sigh.
so i cant go taipei. such disappointment, sorry ah fat!!
i owe u big din din for this :)

With the day started wrong since morning, rushing here and there for handover, blocking every access that FA has, I totally dont have the chance to sit back and let the emotions seep through.
Even when at ah bo's place, i was totally devoid of any emotion, totally numb to the whole situation. It feels just like another day, even though this is quite a huge bomb.

While waiting for the cab earlier, I have a lot of time to think.
Suddenly I feel quite handicapped, even though FA is a lousy, useless asshole, he is half a hand.
At least there is some help. But now everything falls to me.

Honestly, I'm very afraid, suddenly feel so uncertain of myself. What is the future like?
I'm afraid to imagine. For the first time in my life, I felt so afraid and uncertain.
ha! Seems that this journey is so long and I'm walking alone.
So many things not settled, lack of paper work for some matters, creditors at the door, employees' confidence, their loyalty, what new events to do, whether we are going the right direction, so much uncertainty. Sigh.

All that I hope for now is better business and strength to walk this through.
I pray to my Allah everyday is a better day and that my Allah must walk with me otherwise i will crumple and die. I simply can't do this alone anymore, I need help from divine power man!

So Allah, please help me okay. Walk with me.